The window of opportunity
I've been trying to be wise, to be logical, to be responsible. What burdens to think about. A heaviness as one would call it on one's shoulders.
I've been having underlying thoughts. A plan that was forming but had no sense to it yet. Clouds were brewing, have been brewing all of my life. There has to be some direction eventually that fits. Everyone is finding their own path aren't they?
I, I, I have been trying to focus on them, them, them. Maybe that switch will do. But oh! How can I do and be more?! A lot of things feel good but not right.
What are these certain thoughts and reasonings that make something feel right.
Pulling my face down in agony of life's questions, life's quest. I want to do it all I say, but what am I doing just sitting there. I did have a thought today. Feeling unsettled with gaps or inconsistencies that don't sit right in me. This is how I arrive at my very mini revelations....and new life callings. Eventually I'll get one that I may pursue.
I want to be a practicing artist, one who is in demand, one who is a master in some way. SO many others do as well and I find many in a rut. Quality, financials, promotion, exposure, will-power, resources, knowledge. How does one "succeed". Maybe this ugly realistic/logistic aspect needs to be pursued. The HOW. Many of us stumble into this vagueness and go through some "rough times". How to be a business and put ourselves out there; we must master this if we want to proceed with full force.
To find my stride as an artist, to understand the business side, to be a part of the community, to be a talent scout, to produce events, to curate gallery shows, to offer a great network, to work with individuals to progress, to teach and be taught, to feel like I have an understanding, some knowledge I can call my own, to ask the good questions.
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