"Freedom, however, is not the last word. Freedom is only part of the story and half of the truth. Freedom is but the negative aspect of the whole phenomenon whose positive aspect is responsibleness. In fact, freedom is in danger of degenerating into mere arbitrariness unless it is lived in terms of responsibleness."
This is what I have. Total freedom, but no responsibilities. How does it feel you ask? It frankly sucks. This corresponds to "He who has a why to live can bear almost any how." It's been difficult to gain purpose since I've been back and somewhere this is why I have no interest in chatting, texting, and talking on the phone for the most part. Chatter now just has the appearance of words rumbling out of an ego. The only words that have really interested me are those of poetry or philosophy. Sure reading is purposeful for my knowledge, but I want to do something. I've never said 'I don't know what to do with my life anymore' as much as I do now. Things seem pointless in retrospective, sure they can excite you but only for a moment only temporarily. 'Isn't that the worth of living though?', my response would be when I was more lively. The point now is how does one go about finding meaning and purpose. How do you get motivation knocked back into you. What is YOUR reason for being here, what are you meant to do? What are you going to do to make your name known by others and how are you going to go about that? A life unnoticed indeed seems like a waste, though somewhere inside of me still can't understand comprehend that concept. It'll be the day when my heart and my mind are aligned with one other.
Is this from Frankl's book? The quote at the beginning?
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My reason for being here: To live, to take each day one at a time no matter how painful and pointless it may seem because in retrospect, it won't be.
What I am meant to do: Find out in the course of my days what it is I like to do, not what I am supposed to do.
How I will make my name known: My name is already known. It crosses the lips of those I have touched and in return have touched me as well. Those who are able to speak my name are the ones who matter.
Abelle. I love you.
ReplyDeleteMy reason for being: To discover what it means to be human. I want to come to understand people more so that I can have more love and compassion for everyone.
What I am meant to do: Share everything good that I ever find.
How I will make my name known: I will not. I want my spirit known and I don't know if I want people to know what to call it. I want it to be on the tip of your soul's tongue.
This is pompous, but truth.