I sit here wondering. My mind gazes at future arrangements: the fall. I have a slowly building community here, but it will temporarily not be. I have a flame burning here, but it will temporarily not be. I have a quietness, a comfortability, a knowledge here, but it will temporarily not be.

And I think of all the potential greatness that could happen within 5 months away. The things I will do, the actions I will try, the level of love that is waiting to be discovered. The restraints, the possibilities. I'm anticipating this heaven to form before me, but don't worry dear I don't just live through anticipation--I try to LIVE it. This is the recorded reminder for my Self; a thought that is gaining physical form and soon into action. For I want to take my semester and push it towards the edge again, revive it's already heavy breath. From euphoric tire to euphoric desire. Integrating and interweaving with the fabrics of the souls I have yet to meet. Everything from before will be pleasantly on hold, busy as I am busy and we shall meet again: re-meet again, all of you. I think it would be nice to distant myself yet again and find another piece of me, another dimension that I don't know of. To create some new from some old to grow grow grow. Because I hold you close World and I am here, trying to stretch myself to wrap my arms warmly around you as we inhale then sigh with a comforting relief as one, together.

Stream of consciousness, 04202011 20:53